|four years later....
||[Apr. 16th, 2008|09:42 pm]
Wow LJ sure has made changes for the better =)|
I come back to my LJ to realize that this is possibly my best resort to stress and relieving myself of problems and just speaking my mind..or rather typing it out. Four years ago i was 18 years old speaking about whichever bullshit came to my mind. And throughout these past four y ears I've been through more than any teenager/young adult could possibly ask for. In a good and bad sense equally. I've been through the roughest relationships, I began living on my own. Coping with yet what would be the hardest death I've ever had to deal with. And i come to you LJ ..to explode this dropped soda can of emotions i have bubbling up inside of me and I cant seem to figure out why the once strong and independent fiorella, is now the weak and naive one. I used to deal with relationships with such ease, taking things one day at a time and when something didn't go my way, i would erase it out of my life like nothing ever happened. I would walk on to the next who treated me better if not the best and then with a simple mistake, i would continue to leave great relationships for so-called better ones. I look back on my life, my love life, my social life and from time to time i find myself at this very crossroads where I can't seem to do nothing but wish for anything to be back where I was. Back in my confident, emotionally strrong days where i felt like i could take over the world. I realized that love shouldn't be taken for granted. Love needs to be appreciated and held on to because you never know when you're going to lose it and if you do lose it...its going to hurt like hell. I've come to the conclusions that The situation in which i am in now, I don't know if i want it or not.
His name is Mark. I remember the day I met him, it was at a party and this may sound cliche but I looked at my friend and i told her, he's going to be mine.
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